Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Unbelievable

Jim and I went and met with the doctor today to get my results and decide on a plan.  But we ended up leaving without a plan.  Because there is no plan.  Because there is no need for a plan!!!! 

This is not a pre-cancerous cyst, not a cancerous cyst, not even something that could someday turn into cancer.  It's not even actually attached to the pancreas. 

Apparently it's a super rare - like 1% rare type of cyst that happens in the lymphatic system.  Likely a congenital defect that has just over time filled with lymph.  It just happened to find space near the pancreas and settle there. 

I wish I had recorded what the doctor said because I don't remember all the specifics but the take home message was that there is no surgery and nothing really to do with it unless I get really sick in the future.  I feel like the biggest weight has been lifted.  And I feel so free!  No more worrying about surgery or when or whatever.  I still feel nauseas off and on so that's something I have to manage.  Could be because of it's location, being near so many nerves and vessels.  But honestly - a small price to pay.

I'm not sure how I dodged a bullet like this - I can't even begin to express how thankful I am for everyone's thoughts and prayers.  I think I had some powerful angels watching out for me as well. 

Now that the future seems pretty wide open, this scare gave me some perspective.  So as I jokingly told people, my motto is now, YOLO (You Only Live Once), well in this world and this time as far as I know.  So I'm going to try and experience and enjoy this amazing life of mine as much as possible.

Saturday, July 2, 2016

Check

Had the upper endoscopy on Wednesday.  All went great.  No problems and they were able to get fluid to biopsy.  The hardest part of the whole thing was having that IV needle put in my hand.  Just really feels creepy. 

The gastroenterologist said that it didn't look like cancer and she didn't see anything else.  So that's another check mark in the non-cancer side.  Which is awesome. 

So really all good news.  I mean, this situation is what it is.  I'm going to figure out how to deal with it as it evolves.  On Tuesday Jim and I will go to see the surgeon and get the results. 

I'm feeling much more relaxed and able to handle the verdict.  Till Tuesday...

Happy 4th of July!